Fear into love
An ending of a marriage equates to grief. To find yourself in turmoil, having just been turned upside down, is a whole new experience of not-so-great feelings of sadness, fear, confusion, uncertainty and loss of a life you once knew.
I am here to let you know it hurts, you need to feel it in order to rise and create your own, new, crazy amazing life.
My bedside table had a journal, box of tissues and always chocolate. They were all useful, but it was the journal got rid of all those thoughts. The must-remember list, the emotions that needed to be let out. So you sleep and gather that energy to fight another day. One foot in front of the other, as you are worth it and then some.
Coping skills may be crying in the shower, whilst shaving legs. Yes, legs still need attention. Screaming in the car whilst pulled over, listening to 80’s love songs. “Against all odds” was my trigger song. We dwell and then we seek new songs. A home from school drop-off nap or one in the afternoon was a welcome reprieve from thinking through the already clogged up mind space. The gym gave me anonymity, an hour, a sense of achievement. A shower and that coffee and cake reward.
Win win.
